--Ayushi Mal
"I am no bird; and no net ensnares me; I am a free human being with an independent will."
After a
tedious day, I was just watching a flock of birds diving in the sky. It made me
question what freedom feels like? Is it being able to just move from one place
to another without any restriction or its way more than the assumptions I had
back then. Actually, by heart we all crave for freedom and many a times we try
to seek it in very irrelevant ways. We just need to pause for a while and ask
ourselves what it really feels like? The definition of freedom may vary according
to the difference in individualities and that is perfectly fine. One just need
to know their soul urge and everything will be fine.
For me
freedom is little bit subtle, actually a bit complicated or may be still on the
way to find what it is really for me. But I am glad, I have stepped on its
journey. Being grown up in a society where everything is questioned beginning
with the dress you wear to the choices you make. After being brought up in a
society like this, I just craved to act free where I could make my choices irrespective
of anything and live the life on my own terms. I just wanted to choose the
dress I wear without having second thought. I just wanted to visit any place
without having to ask anybody about it. May be that was freedom for me back
then as I didn’t have much desire or maybe I took everything on the surface
level. I just felt I am caged, though I had wings but somehow, I forgot to
spread it. That was me back then, when I hardly thought of anything.
But now I
am discovering someone afresh who have laid somewhere dormant. May be my desire
has changed but what I intend to feel is just same. Still, I want to feel free
but now my focus has shifted to me. Now, I don’t want to control what others
think of me but learning to regulate my own feelings. I just want to be unaffected
from others judgement. I just want to live for me where I feel relieved. Now I
practice more on regulating my own emotions and feelings irrespective of the
situation and people around me. But now I have realized that I am captivated by my own
mind and needs self-healing.
Freedom is not something which could be handed over but what is been created out of everything. It lies in living the life intentionally by being aware and taking the necessary steps towards it. It simply means to live mindfully free from own waste thoughts and worry of future and regret of past.
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